Saturday, June 13, 2009

What I've learned - Day 1

1. I can do it
2. Bring extra bra
3. It takes an hour - flat.
4. Mini hairdryer is not a bad idea
5. There is much irony in life.
Examples:
I bought cigarettes to reward myself for trying to improve my overall well- being
    I was rewarded with a candy bar while trying to improve my overall well-being
    I was rewarded with a candy bar while trying to improve my overall well-being,     and I work in a chocolate shop.
6. I like time to myself
7. I am not thrilled with my ass being in full view of on-coming cars, yet am too lazy to cross the street to change it.

8. I will do it again tomorrow

Day 1: The return

Adrenaline starting to pump.  Legs a bit stiff.  Hair a disaster.  Shirt riding up with the motion of the backpack.  Pants feel a little short.  I think my ass grew since the morning.  Bra wet.  Face red.  I feel beautiful.  If beautiful means like I've rolled in manure.

Departure time:  7:18 p.m.
Arrival time:  8:18 a.m.

Too tired and sore to walk upstairs. To do any stairs more than once.  Must get off feet.  Now.  Horizontal.  Now.


Day one

8:38 a.m. As I begin, I wonder what kind of time I will make.  I have about an hour to work with, although that won't give me much time to change into "Malley Girl".

There is a sense of purpose, excitement and a little bit of concern....about coming back, but that's tonight.  

I keep my eyes out for my scheduled landmarks, making a conscious effort not to look at the clock on the cell phone, which is buried deeply in the confiscated backpack.

I note smells along the way: fresh cut grass at the plaza of mile one, deep-fried breakfast around the 1.5 mark.  I take a brief inventory of any pain, discomfort, make a mental note for next time (sunglasses, sunscreen, water, possibly a hat).  During the second half I note the concrete horse brought in for installation at the new Mark Pi going in at the mall.  Mile 2 complete, one more to go.  I smell wild onions, not the strewn Wendy's garbage on the sidewalk (maybe I'll bring a garbage bag, too), note the wild roses growing amongst what I see are giant weeds, not the small kind I think I saw from the car.  Cemetery, now I will have time to read the names on these giant markers, some are almost like tombs.  Funeral home and now I can see ahead the signs for the gas station which marks my final obstacle.

Almost there.  In celebration, I stop at my favorite gas station to be waited on by my favorite clerk.  She greets me with her regular smile, but there is something in her eyes.  Surprise, Confusion, and, I think Concern.  She looks at me quizzically and I say, "I walked!"  The surprise and confusion are still there, but concern is the primary expression.  

She doesn't ask why.  She does, however, asks when I get off of work, she is offering me a ride.  I decline with much thanks and explain that I will be walking.  The Confusion is still there, as well as Skepticism.

As I pay for my reward for completing my first commute, a pack of cigarettes, she slips me a pack of Dark Chocolate Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, I assume, to reward me for whatever misfortune she thinks has gotten me into this predicament.

I cross the large intersection that will bring me to my final destination.  

Once inside, I run to the bathroom to begin my transformation.  As I flick on the light I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror:  holy crap!  No wonder my friend looked at me so strangely!  My face is as red as I have ever seen, pores opened up for the masses, my hair, except for the teased part at the top is soaking wet.  Crap.  I look like complete crap.  I race to begin the rescue and get the store opened on time.  Crap.

Friday, June 12, 2009

The Decision

I had pretty much talked myself out of it when the first alarm went off at 5:45.  By the time the second alarm went off, I knew my decision.  I was going to put it off.  No one knew of my intentions, no one would know if I once again backed out of a self-imposed challenge.  It wouldn't be the first time, heaven only knows.  

I struggled out of bed, made coffee and sat down to do "my puzzle".  Not too hard, but hard enough for a Wednesday NYT crossword.  I like to think of myself as "in-training" to complete a Saturday or Sunday puzzle, but after a year, I still have yet to make it all the way through a Thursday challenge.  Optimism is my goal, so I keep plugging along.  Morning routine complete, I head for the shower.  I realize it is only 7:50 a.m.  I can get ready in less than half an hour.  I've done it before.  If I accept my internal challenge, I can make it.  Of course I have to pack a lunch, clothes, umbrella.....but then again, I don't have to do my make-up or accessorize my clothes, grubbies will do the trick.  At last, a burst of endorphins help me rise to the challange.  I shower, jump into the grubbies, move my orthotic supports into my "expensive" sneakers, confiscate my daughter's school back-pack and load it with items from my mental checklist, lock the door and check my cell phone, 8:38 a.m.  A little later than ideal, but it is what it is.  I confidently start down the driveway (please understand that "confidently" is used in the loosest terms possible.

I look back at our house once I get to the corner.  Well, I guess I'm doing it.  If I do this, I have no choice but to do it tonight.  No one is home, I'm on my own.  No fall-back plan.  This is the way I work best.

I am walking to work.  Three miles.  Each way.  Not Olympic caliber stuff, but it is never-the less a commitment.  Walk to work, work for 9 hours, walk home.  It is a good plan.

I have my route divided into 3 milestones, literally and figuratively.  Giant Eagle shopping plaza, 1 mile, Summit Mall, 2 miles, work, 3 miles.  Not exactly, but it is divided in such a way that each section is certainly manageable and gives me a small goal to realize every 20 minutes or so..........